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FreshDynamicsOfSpringMasques by Sabin-Corneliu Buraga
My experience of "seeing" inside the body begins as a "feeling" that I feel when I look at a person. This type of information translating on its own from one type of information to another, I suspect it to be part of my synesthesia which is why I also see numbers and physics equations in color, and relate to many things in vibration, color, and shapes.


When I look at a person, I feel a detailed vibrational landscape across them. I feel this without touching, and from a distance. To feel a landscape, it is similar to if you were to close your eyes and hold your hand over candles and icecubes, you would be feeling the pattern and landscape of their temperature distribution. What I feel does not feel like temperature, but more like variations in frequencies, or intensities. Almost like the way one can tell apart different sound frequencies, only that what I feel is not like sound either.

Across the vibrational landscape, atoms begin to take shape. I can feel which atoms belong together, and they wrap around one another in clusters, based on how the vibrations merge or avoid one another and form molecules. A molecule then gets its own composite vibrational feeling, and structures buid upwards into tissues and organs, if I am feeling into a body.

I suspect that my experience of medical perception involves synesthesia. Synesthesia is when a person experiences real information with one of their senses, and that real information translates on its own into corresponding information experienced with another sense, being something that is entirely arbitrary and artificial and being only in their mind and not in the real world. For instance a person with synesthesia might hear a real sound with their ears, and experience an artificial color in their mind, but the color was not really there nor seen with their eyes. Or to see a real color with their eyes, might translate into an artificial experience of a taste that was not really there and nothing was eaten.

Everyone connects their senses to some degree. When we learn about things we learn to associate many different types of information together. For instance a flower is both a visual shape and a color, a felt texture, and a scent. A person might also connect a special memory or an emotion to the flower. Then to experience only the scent of that flower in a perfume, the image of that flower might automatically appear in their mind. But most of these connections come from learned experience and past exposure. In synesthesia, new sensory experiences arise that were never experienced in real life and ones that may not even be real, such as the experience of music having tastes.

A synesthetic experience happens spontaneously and on its own, and another feature is that the experience is always the same. A letter would always produce the same color, and not different ones. Someone once wrote to me asking if synesthesia was a sign of a more highly evolved brain. Synesthesia can't be the case of a heightened sense, because each person with synesthesia experiences the artificial connections differently. To one synesthete, the number 2 might be red, to another person with synesthesia, the same number 2 might be green. The synesthetic associations in each synesthete are unique and can therefore not be the case of access to some normally concealed additional information about things. However there is some agreement among most synesthetes. For instance most synesthetes, including myself, see number 2 as orange.

Each synesthete connects information in their own unique way. Each who sees numbers in color has their own set of colors. Each synesthete also experiences crossing between senses differently. Some see colors in numbers, but not taste in sound. I see numbers and letters in color, and relate to physics equations, chemicals, mathematics and all other objects and concepts in terms of a felt vibration, a felt and visual shape, and visual color.

When I feel vibrational patterns in things this information belongs to the category of feeling, but through what I think might be synesthesia, it translates automatically into vision and structure, and sometimes also sound, taste and scent, and many other types of understanding. The vibrational patterns I feel in human tissues comes alive in my mind as visual images of organs and tissues together with felt understanding of pain and discomfort as the person is feeling.

I have always had these perceptions to some extent but they have become enhanced over the years. At the age of 14 I saw a quartz crystal for the first time and felt immediately drawn to them. I got a crystal, and a book that explained how to use crystals. One of the exercises was to hold the crystal over your hand until you can feel a beam coming out of it. I practiced for days, until one day I could feel a cool, blue beam coming from the crystal and into my hand. I got other types of crystals and learned to feel a different type of feeling associated to each of them. And eventually I could feel the crystals just by thinking of them and did not have to hold them anymore and put them away. Not long after that I was surprised to notice a feeling and visual shimmer around one of our houseplants, and later I noticed that I was feeling and seeing things around oranges and also other foods. Eventually I noticed that when I looked at people, I was feeling detailed patterns of vibration and forming clear images in my mind of the insides of their bodies!

Had I simply developed more brain connections by practicing to feel subtle vibrations and by wanting and expecting to feel vibrations, and enhanced a synesthetic experience? Or was I actually picking up actual vibrational information from things, including human tissues? At first, I have to admit, I was very appalled by seeing clear images of intestines, blood, and other tissues, in my mind! Back then I was like most people and would have been uncomfortable seeing surgery on television. But over the years, I have learned to live with what I see and have come to truly appreciate the esthetic beauty of human tissues and would even like to pursue a degree in Histology, the study of human tissues. My career will be devoted to the study of light matter interaction applied to human tissue structure.

The medical perceptions continue to grow clearer and more interesting over time. The perceptions are not overwhelming or distractive. My other ordinary senses of perception are perfectly normal otherwise, and my vision, hearing, taste, sense of smell and sense of touch show the world in the same way as it does for anyone else. The perceptions, as my synesthesia, are an additional experience that I do not have a sense of reality to. The perceptions and the synesthesia are rather like impressions, like when you contemplate on a painting or a work of art, and feel things associated to it, you would also not hold belief in those feelings or base your experience of reality on them. No matter how realistic the images might look, I am quite capable of not assuming them to be real depictions of the insides of people's bodies.

However, I often find that the medical perceptions correlate to actual health information in people! Obviously I could be reading external symptoms of health information visually by looking at the person, and thus obtaining clues without knowing it that translate into corresponding pictures through synesthesia. Clues such as body posture and the way people move, facial expression and many other details in how people look, can provide clues about their internal health. That is commonly called cold reading, and it can happen unintentionally. However... some of the things I have perceived don't have any external visual symptoms that I could think of! And that is where things get interesting, and why I am conducting this paranormal investigation.

See this page on Experienced Medical Perceptions where I write down some of the specific medical perceptions I have and keep a score on correct, incorrect, and undetermined accuracy!

Some videos about synesthesia

Physics in Colors

Synesthesia is thought to lead to enhanced creativity and artistic abilities as well as learning capabilities. As a student of physics I don't see how I could remember some of the physics equations without seeing the equations in colors and shapes. Each physics variable comes alive as a felt shape and pattern with color. It helps me to become familiar with them and to apply them in new situations. One time I had to remember to use (N lambda) in a certain equation but kept forgetting it because I did not quite understand why it had to be there (and don't think many of us understood it at that time). Suddenly I begun seeing N as green and lambda as yellow and after that every time I saw the equation where it needs to be used, I still did not remember (N lambda) but because of the shape of the equation that precedes it I would automatically see the green with yellow in my mind and could translate the color and shape back into N and lambda. Nlambda

Sequences of insignificant letters and numbers are easier to remember and learn when each component has its own role, color, shape and vibrational feeling and can be memorized in color-groups. I don't know how well I'd be learning without color synesthesia. Here's one that I particularly like, because it is easy to remember with its color sequence,


Another one I like, sinh, the hyperbolic sine is probably my favorite function right now, and it looks like this. I enjoy the way math and physics become shapes, and this one is a particularly beautiful shape with the color of deep pink with red.

Numbers in Colors

1 ..... 2 ..... 3 ..... 4 ..... 5 ..... 6 ..... 7 ..... 8

17 ..... 18 ..... 25 .....

Chemistry in Colors

With my "Vision From Feeling" I perceive atoms and molecules in colors that are not always the same as the colors we see when we look at chemicals with our eyesight. It bothers me that chemistry molecule sets, that are used to assemble different colored atoms together into three-dimensional models of molecules, are in different colors than what I personally experience. I perceive nitrogen as neon green, phosphorus as deep blue, potassium as light blue, hydrogen as red. Carbon is black, argon is a purple-red, calcium a light blue but a different shade of light blue than potassium. Chlorine is a deep turquoise, sodium a metallic gray yellow.

Many substances come across as colored when we see them. The color that I associate to an atom is not necessarily the same as the color a large amount of such a substance would have.

I have had experiences where it seemed that the information I perceived about atoms and molecules led to accurate conclusions about that chemical. One of my chemistry laboratory courses asked each student to identify the structure of four unknown chemical compounds by instrumental and chemical methods. Each student had their own set of four compounds. One of mine was biphenyl, and before I had ran it through the tests I had felt into it and perceived its shape of two connected phenyl groups, as it has. Two of my four were nitrogen compounds and I did perceive the neon green nitrogen in each before I confirmed it in the laboratory. I have also experienced sensing what an unknown medicine would do in the body, before the name and then the properties of the medicine become available to me.

Hydrogen: H

Chloride ion is always the same turquoise: Cl

The word or concept of Argon produces one of the most interesting color-associations, Argon

When I read the abbreviation of lithium (Li) I experience color association. Lithium has a combination of colors: greens, yellow, and a grey metallic. The feeling and color is very similar to the way I experience sodium, which is nice since these are related chemical elements. Lithium Lithium produces one of my most favorite synesthetic experiences of a chemical element. It is a visual image of shape, size, and color, and is felt in terms of a shape, size, and density. Interestingly, the perception of lithium makes it a very small size compared to most of the other elements, which is true for lithium, it is much smaller than most others. The colors are a vivid yellow with red and orange to the edges.

Palladium is the color of blueberries, a soft purple-grey-blue. It also feels soft and malleable, like a blueberry would.

Magnesium is a turquoise green. Rubidium is a crimson purple-pink.

I still do not perceive a color associated to every chemical element. I only need to see the abbreviated letters of a chemical element in order for it to trigger the perception of the color. It is always the same color for the same chemical element. I am curious about perceiving sodium as yellow, since the actual color of its flame happens to be yellow, as in here and here. Sodium itself is a grey (alkali) metal but is rarely found in its pure metal form since it is highly reactive and occurs as the positively charged sodium ion in combinations with other negatively charged ions as ionic compounds, one of the more well-known being sodium chloride, table salt. In its ionic form the ionic compound tends to have white color, depending on the negative species. So there appears to be nothing yellow about sodium itself. But to me, when I look at or think of chemical elements, each has its distinct color that is not the same as the color we see with our eyes.

The different chemical elements, atoms, are different by the number of protons in their nucleus, which leads to different patterns of electron distribution around the nuclei. Science can distinguish the chemical elements by using spectroscopic techniques. When atoms are exposed to electromagnetic radiation, they can absorb some of the radiation as photons whose wavelengths match what that particular atom or ion can absorb and that is different for each. These absorbed photons are later re-emitted. An instrument can then detect the emitted photons to produce a unique emission spectrum that displays on a graph what frequencies of light were absorbed and re-emitted by the chemical sample. For pure samples (that are not mixtures) these emission spectra produce "fingerprints" of atoms and molecules that help to identify what atoms were in the sample.
Here is the emission spectra that is specific to sodium: yellow sodium emission spectra. Not only is the visible flame of sodium yellow, so is its emission spectra.
Some of the other emission spectra of chemical elements also remind me of the colors I see in them.

Here is hydrogen - it is red!
I perceive nitrogen as green. Its emission spectra has quite a bit of blue-green in it, but also red that I do not perceive.
I perceive oxygen as colorless, perhaps because most of its emission lines are on a high frequency that would be difficult to translate into color? (Because the human eye perceives visible color only up to a certain high frequency.)
Silicon I perceive as a grey-blue, which is consistent with its emission spectra again if you disregard the red lines.
To me sulfur is yellow-orange.
To me argon is purple-red or brown-red, and its emission spectra is with the exception of one strong line, definitely not that.
The potassium emission spectra is very consistent with the light-blue that I see.
To me calcium is a blue and again I do not perceive the red in it at all.
The emission spectra of some chemical elements seem consistent with the color I perceive with them, whereas for others there seems to be no correlation.

I need to mention that my color and feeling vibration association or synesthesia toward chemical elements does not interfere with the way I work with chemistry (I am a Chemistry major at college). It is in fact the opposite, many students strongly dislike Chemistry and many who I've spoken with say that it is because they can't really see what they are working with and everything is on such a small scale and out of reach. I on the other hand have a rich experience and find the work enjoyable, and I am sure this can only be of benefit. I do not assume any form of correlation or basis in reality for my subjective association of color and vibrational information from chemicals and my performance in a chemistry laboratory is solely based on conventional knowledge from classes and textbooks. The only time and place where I can express my experience of association or perception is as a source of inspiration for new ideas for my own future research projects which then of course will go through the conventional scientific method of assessment.

Aluminum trichloride - my favorite!

From www.biztrademarket.com
My perception of aluminum trichloride is very beautiful. I perceive each individual type of atom in its own way, but sometimes for molecules the combination of atoms yields a different color and feeling that I perceive of the atoms than if the atoms were on their own. Usually I see the colors in a molecule side by side but sometimes they interact and blend into something new. I see carbon as black and oxygen as transparent or blue, but carbon dioxide I see as black with red. Aluminum trichloride is the most beautiful chemical perception I have had.

It is probably synesthesia since I have never seen aluminum chloride "in person". All I had come across about it was the abbreviated letters written on a page to see it in color and feeling. The aluminum in it is a wonderful soft light-metallic color. Its appearance isn't solid but consists of dense shimmer. It also feels extremely slippery. Next to it are the chlorine atoms, and to my surprise they are yellow! Chlorine on its own is turquoise, but alongside aluminum, chloride was yellow without as much as a hint of turquoise, blue, or even green. It is a soft yellow and slightly darker toward the outer edges where it is further away from the aluminum. In the actual molecular structure of aluminum chloride, the aluminum atom is in the middle and surrounded by chloride ions.

I am quite taken by my experience of aluminum trichloride, it is without question the most pleasant synesthetic chemical experience I've had so far. I was pleasantly surprised to find out that aluminum trichloride is yellow in reality! I did not know its actual color when I had my first perception of it.

Aluminum trichloride is very beautiful: AlCl3

Daniel Tammet calculates with shapes and colors

Daniel Tammet has an amazing talent in performing complex numerical calculations in his mind by being able to relate to numbers in terms of colors and shapes, that then interact in his mind as colors and shapes, to produce the answers, in colors and shapes, that he then translates back into numbers. Begin watching 5 minutes and 20 seconds into this video Daniel Tammet - The Boy With The Incredible Brain [4/5] to see what his experience is like.

His relating to numbers is similar to how I relate to things in terms of vibrations, color and feeling, and what I call Vibrational Algebra where I use the synthetic aspects of vibration, color, and feeling to process the information into resulting conclusions in vibration, color, feeling, which I then translate back into brand new real-world things. I use it to calculate theoretical cures to health conditions and to come up with a wide range of research hypotheses in my field of science. I also use it when I perform physics and math calculations or process theoretical chemistry computations in my mind, which makes me a much better student than I would be otherwise. Unlike Daniel however I am not a savant (someone with an exceptional memory recollection ability).

Vibrational Algebra

In all things I sense a "vibrational aspect". A person, a number, an object, anything has a characteristic vibrational signature that I sense. The vibrations are a feeling, but are also colors and shapes. From that vibration, I can extract many types of information about the thing from which it originates, such as structure, density, weight, and other properties. But I can also process the vibrational information to calculate new predictions not present at that time. In my mind I can combine the vibrations from two sources to see how they would interact, and from that translate the resulting vibration back into physical significance to see what the predicted outcome of their interaction would be. That is how I sense if two things might interact well, or if they would repel. This kind of "addition" of vibrations also shows me the predicted result of eating a food or a medicine. The addition of the vibrational aspect of a pill or a food item to the complete vibration of a human body, reveals the product vibration that shows what would happen, and reveals if the effects would be good or harmful for instance.

Such "addition" is just one form of what I call Vibrational Algebra. I can also do subtraction of vibrations to obtain an unknown. By combining the vibration of a healthy body with the vibration of a disease, the subtraction reveals the unknown vibration representing the cure for the disease. I can then translate back the vibration of the cure into either a chemical, or a medical procedure. Sometimes the cure feels very similar to something I'm familiar with from before, such as a food. Dandelion leaves feel like the exact cure to a particular inflammatory disease that affects women.

Everything from physical things like people, foods, or chemicals, to radiation, temperature, pressure, everything has a vibrational aspect and can be included in my calculations. But apart from this abstract world of vibrations I have a separate normal sense of reality and information processing. The vibrations only lead to creative inspiration and ideas. My ideas from Vibrational Algebra to research hypotheses, or cures to medical conditions, would go through the same practices and checks as any other hypothesis, regardless of what the source of inspiration was to the scientist.

I don't share my perceptions to other people, I keep them to myself. But it can be part of my thinking as it leads to research hypotheses that are actually good. I treat it as a source of inspiration and creativity, and regard any impressions as no more valid than poetry or art.

And then there's the transformation.
Where you open your mind,
and break the spell.
That so many people are under.
The hypnotic spell,
of seeing the world in a certain way.
And when you realize,
or when you start to transform, you realize,
a staggering fact,
which the cutting edge of science
is now beginning even to identify,
that this world,
we think is physical,
is an illusion.
It's an illusion.
There is no "out there",
in terms of physical things that we perceive out there.
What is out there are just frequency fields,
which we are decoding
into a holographic reality.
That only exists in our minds.
David Icke

Picture published with permission from artist.
By Sabin-Corneliu Buraga from her Electronic Paintings
FreshDynamicsOfSpringMasques from the section maSque/s